I can barely see you - I can barely feel you - your fading like the dirt on my TV. I’m feeling kind of scared cause I never get to talk but there’s really nothing good for me to say. You’re right to stay away - you’re dangerous to me. You push so cleverly just like no others. You don’t like other girls - you care about your friends - and you’d rather have been born as one of your brothers.

Suddenly I am “the wrong”. Suddenly I can’t be strong. Suddenly I am the man I never meant to be.

I barely know your name I barely know your name even though we have been living here for years. I’d really like to talk but they took away my tongue and replaced it with a thousand lonely tears. I’m sorry about your dad I wish he wasn’t mean. I really wish I didn’t remind you of him. I try my very best but the devil owns my mind and I haven’t had the chance to show you who I am.

Won’t you have another cup of tea? I really have enjoyed our time together. And when I get on back to the prison, will you wait for me? Until I return so suddenly.